Church!

– by Me (when do I get to have a name?  I’m important too!)

I was worried about going to church because I thought I might have to sing, but Taran said no, so that was good.  Lots of people were glad to see us and I didn’t know what to say to them.  I found a seat and sat there looking around at everyone.  They let me take off my shoes and scrunch up on the chair and it was nice.  The people in the church were singing about God breathing on them and I wondered if God had bad breath.  Taran listened a lot and so did Matthew and Grey guarded the door and the big kitty cat sat nearby even though he went right through this woman next to me. Continue reading →

Yet Another Abdication

by Taran

We all loved her in our own ways and the amalgam personality felt it all.  He was an all-right kind of guy and probably had the hardest job out of everyone.  He had to filter our collective thoughts and wants on a daily basis.  All the more challenging when she was around [You spin me right round, baby, right round.] Hey, wait your turn.  Anyhow, things got tough and he hit the road, abdicated.  Jumped right out a window and splattered all over the roof of the hotel.  When I saw that Matthew had painted a grave, I knew he was gone for good. Continue reading →

An Incredibly Pointless and Stupid Exercise

– by Taran

So going to church was a smart move.  That’s a good place to be.  But then our guy follows this up with a magic mushroom vision quest over at Nate’s.  I guess he thought he could gain some special insight by downing some poisonous plants and seeing lots of pretty colors.  How stupid can you get?  We didn’t want to have anything to do with it, so we all pulled back.  The dark ones enjoyed themselves, though.  Yeah, that was a brilliant plan.  What was he thinking?  He could have drugged a child!  I gave him a hard talking to and he seemed genuinely sorry.

Missing Her

It feels like all the veins and arteries in my body have become these strands of energy reaching out to Jess.  I want to be with her RIGHT NOW.  Just to sit and talk to her.  I know now that I will be closer to being healed when I know I’m doing this for me and not for her.  I need to get to a point where I stop thinking about her every day.  I fantasize about her constantly.  All beautiful women remind me of her.  But I don’t just fantasize about the sexual aspects; I daydream of her laughter, the way her face wrinkles when she smiles, making her breakfast, the thrill I feel seeing her for the first time on a particular day, eating a meal with her, debating the nature of reality, and on and on.

I know time is supposed to heal all wounds and I certainly must have gotten over other women in my life, but only time will tell if this terrible ache is justified.

Run Rabbit Run

After discovering a chatroom online for people with DID, I was inspired to go out and buy my own copy of “When Rabbit Howls.”  I started reading it and realized that I had already read some of it before.  I skipped ahead a bit and started reading again.   I read a whole chapter and then realized I already knew what happened in the next chapter.  So I skipped ahead again.  I guess I’m a little over halfway through.  Maybe after I’m done I’ll go back and re-read it just to be sure I actually read it all.

Forward

– by Matthew

We are in motion towards the shaft of light breaking through the clouds.  It isn’t the destination that’s important, but the fact that we are journeying together.  This landscape is malleable and shifts on strange winds.  As we walk through the tall grass, our home moves along with us, tethered to my footsteps.

Taran is silent, but eager.  I see his eyes light up as we clear the top of each hill, anxious to see what lies ahead.  The younger one rides the Guardian of the Heart and his joy is infectious.  The other, less solid members of our company flicker about us like lights in a mist.  Below the roots of earth, I sense the dark cavern being dragged along behind us, the tripartite being refusing to acknowledge that any journey is taking place.

That is all I wish to say at this time, thank you.

Dimensional Warp Generator Needed

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This is a Story No One Else Has Read

It transpires like this: My wife, Cathy, whom I have been married to for x number of years (x = heart memory, buried memory, misty and unaccounted for. The lost time blows over the plain of my inner world, leaving shadows like gaping mouths rolling ever closer.) decides that enough’s enough. She quit her job, she quit church and when that didn’t make her life better, she quit me. Continue reading →

Tetelestai

Surveying 31 days of scars
An infirmary for words
Just shoot them as they sleep
I cannot bear their needy countenances
for another day
I gilded my tongue with water from the black flask
Now everything I say is the absolute truth
Even my dream self points a finger
Muttering sideways to its brothers
At how changed I am
The stain of words prints my bedsheets
with a map of meanings
I am too weary to decipher
I must break all my fingers
Before they scoop out my eyes
So tired of seeing everything
in the light of my own heart

Emergency Condom Hidden in Wallet Haiku

bought new snow shovel

i look out window every day

not a flake in sight