All posts tagged Jess

Yet Another Abdication

by Taran

We all loved her in our own ways and the amalgam personality felt it all.  He was an all-right kind of guy and probably had the hardest job out of everyone.  He had to filter our collective thoughts and wants on a daily basis.  All the more challenging when she was around [You spin me right round, baby, right round.] Hey, wait your turn.  Anyhow, things got tough and he hit the road, abdicated.  Jumped right out a window and splattered all over the roof of the hotel.  When I saw that Matthew had painted a grave, I knew he was gone for good. Continue reading →

Missing Her

It feels like all the veins and arteries in my body have become these strands of energy reaching out to Jess.  I want to be with her RIGHT NOW.  Just to sit and talk to her.  I know now that I will be closer to being healed when I know I’m doing this for me and not for her.  I need to get to a point where I stop thinking about her every day.  I fantasize about her constantly.  All beautiful women remind me of her.  But I don’t just fantasize about the sexual aspects; I daydream of her laughter, the way her face wrinkles when she smiles, making her breakfast, the thrill I feel seeing her for the first time on a particular day, eating a meal with her, debating the nature of reality, and on and on.

I know time is supposed to heal all wounds and I certainly must have gotten over other women in my life, but only time will tell if this terrible ache is justified.

This is a Story No One Else Has Read

It transpires like this: My wife, Cathy, whom I have been married to for x number of years (x = heart memory, buried memory, misty and unaccounted for. The lost time blows over the plain of my inner world, leaving shadows like gaping mouths rolling ever closer.) decides that enough’s enough. She quit her job, she quit church and when that didn’t make her life better, she quit me. Continue reading →

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“We’re all out there, somewhere, waiting to happen.”  – Jeff Noon, Vurt

Today a friend of mine suggested that I examine the symbols in my Waking Life, as they can be more profound than the ones I encounter in dreams.  It didn’t occur to me to do so until just now, on the crest of some desperate epiphany. Continue reading →

Sisters of the Storm

I have met the love of my life, the girl of my dreams, and my soulmate.
They are three different women.
My love burned out my eyes as I watched her fall
I wandered, hands outstretched, in search of her in the country of jagged glass
Our greetings no longer Amiable, our stares strange,
I still remember the sweet blood on my cut hands, some of it was mine.

Another I met in an afternoon vision, folded note slipped sideways past my ribs,
Warning me of a red fire boiling in from the east.
My men barely had time to lash me to the mast
The last knot snug just as the golden voice rained aching over my heart.
I remained ever an island to her, she a sunset strangely settling in the east again.
A span of time and circumstances cut between us and I fear I cannot Bridge it.

My soulmate stirred beside me in sleep when our names were the alternating beats on a drumskin stretched between the teeth of gods hunkered in secret parley until one sneezed and one laughed and the skin snapped, a canvas whipping in the wind, paint crying over the map of all the child-smudged continents from where they would send for our varied parts only to scatter them over and over from the cliffs of the moon down to clay-slick river valleys where red monkeys sift the water for the syllables of the incantation that will make us whole.
Her voice is the sea foam call Beckoning Again from the cave where fire children raise pinky fingers to write messages in mercury. For her I will always answer, will always fly and fall, shudder and be still.

The three will never weave me a skein of promises, a blanket under which I can sleep untroubled
The three will never confer and trade secrets
The three will never compare their familiar bruises
But when they cry out from each horizon they are a chorus and their song finds a common center
They are the Sisters of the Storm and my oceans boil when they draw near.

Starting Over

I meet Her.

I enter the poetry scene at a slam at R.B. Winning Coffee Co.
Encounter Don McIver, Bob Reeves and Amy Mullin, but they don’t know who I am yet.